My math need L0ve... (^.^)

bismilahhirahmanirrahim ~ In The Name Of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful 


Alhamdulillah, 
i'm still breath...


and now i want to tell maybe such a boring story...
who care, this is my blog...hahah


Mathematics, 
someone loves it, others maybe hate it!
and....we cannot run fr0m math! it will run to us back....! heheh

i started to know the word "mathematics" when i was 7years old..

maybe a little bit late to know....who's care! haha

my life as a sudent when i was in standard 1...

at Sekolah Kebangsaan Sultan Abdul Aziz...

i really hate to go to the scho0l...

why...??

c0z i always being bullied by others and i felt alone..

i made a frenz with chienes, boy...

and i relize that they were not too good to be my frenz..

i'm still remember one of my teacher,

she teach me mathematics..

she tought with full of love...

and i understand math, fr0m that day...

i started to love math...

THEN....

my name had been selected to move a new school as that school were built..

i have move to another school..

and i was vvvvvvery happy!

coz i cannot be bullied by others anymore..

i'm the 1st batch!

Sk Seri Setia...!

yup...continue my story about math...

i cannot drop math...yeah,

in "tahap 1" student...

my math teacher was a women,

she tought me and she also "didenda"coz of math...

with love...

but when i was in "tahap 2" , she was my coach for bola baling!

i miss her...

in "tahap 2" my math teacher was a lovely men, 

he teach like a father and be friend to us...

l0ve again...

alhamdullilah, my math so far f0r primary school was very goo0d!

THEN...
i continued study at SMK Seri Setia..
but it was only for a week coz i got "tawaran ke ...."
Sekolah Raja Perempuan Taayah Ipoh..
huhu..
i dont want to go...
but, i agreed to go...


When i was in form 1 until f0rm 3,
i didnt get enough "love" for math...
and i started to hate math!
yup...i cried...
and there was a teacher, said i have a "tulisan cakar ayam"
and she scolded me and gave an order to me to wrote again...again...again...
coz my writing was "cakar ayam"....
and fr0m that i hate her,    #*PLIzZ NEVER EVER haTE TEACHERs
but....then, i want to thank to her event till now my writing is "cakar ayam"
miss her...
i not supposed to hate her....sory for that tyme i'm was a 'kid'..


F0r PMR, i was worried about my math,
so, i learned math by my own, and sometimes i refer to my excellent frenz from other class...her name, nisaaaa....she tought me with patient, tq nisaaaa!
and i started went home(asrama) very late everyday, didnt take dinner..
coz i'm studying math...sometimes i felt vvvery dificult...but the word "sabar" was keep in mind...
ALhamdulillah, my PMR result was unexpected...straight a's


THEN...
when i was f0rm 4....i was placed in 4sina class...
and i'm truely not proud to be sc student..
again i had to face with the same situation when i was form3..
math and addmath, oh no!
i really dont understand what teacher tought me..
she tought so fast and i didnt got even a single thing..
maybe coz in my class too many student...
or mybe that is sc class, sc student..
i almost give up!
yup...i cried again..
cried silently in my heart, no one can see me crying..


i prayed that i will find the solution..
oneday, my friend in khawarizmi class chat with me, and i asked about math..
who teach her?
did she understand?
she told me that ckgu Rohani teach them, and they were understand..
emmm...
mybe they were few in that clas..
but she also told "love" math...
yup! there is it, i really want "math love"....


before next year for form5..
there were some subjects that has seperated class..
and included addmath...set1 (excellent mark), set2 (moderate), set3 (very weak)


in accidently, i heard that ckg Rohani tought for set3..
yup...
and m0st of my friend wanted the first class,
but i want the last one!
Alhamdulillah...my math learning was very fun and "love"
Alhamdullilah...
my SPM also unexpected result...

*sory bad writing english
*oh! my english (HEHEH)

by the way....

let bygone be bYgoNE....! (my trademark with my roomate)

i L0Ve to all my teachers...!

i will miss all of them

NEVER EveR HATE them...!

...........HAPPY TEACHERS DAY...........

*selamat hari guru juga kpd mak dan abah!

bagiku BERSIH 3.0

bismilahhirahmanirrahim ~ In The Name Of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful


Alhamdulilah, segala puji hanya layak untuk-Nya...
(^_^)


em, skng nie tgh hangat BERSIH 3.0...
sbenar nyer xtaw ape pun..sbb mls nk amik taw..
terdetik tiba2 nk amik taw sbb terbace status fb ut akmal..
tue yg nk taw cket2..


emm, sbnar nyer bagus matlamat BERSIH 3.0 nie..
tapi bg fiza xpenting ag kot, sbb xlayak nk pi undi ag..


fiza un study kt KL, so kne amik taw jgk la cket2..
sbnar nyer, fiza sgt3 bencikan kL sbb sesak + pOllution asap byk sgt..


nape la nk himpun kt dataran merdeka, sesak...huhu
kdg2 tue menyusahkan jgk..
pi la wat kt tmpat yg lapang cket, cm kt tmpat yg boleh muat ribuan org dan parking available...huhu, sesak...


ssh bg student cam fiza nie nk grk..


hah! teringat sbut psl student nie..
ari2 demostrasi mansuh PTPTN...
tyme2 sgt2 menyusahkan org!
jln kt dataran merdeka tutup,
dah le jln nk pi ke kmpus kne lalu dtaran merdeka...
huhuhu...
k0me nie dh pinjam ater kne le bayar balik...
klu xnk bayar, xyah pinjam PTPTN tue!


ish3....asthaghfirullah...
sabar2...fiza...


bagi fiza, student yg xterlibat @ xlayak undi ag, xmoh le pi wat dem0nstrasi nie...


be professional...

culture sh0ck...?

bismilahhirahmanirrahim ~ In The Name Of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful


Assalamualaikum w.b.t


alhamdulillah diri ini masih bernafas utk memperbaiki diri 
utk menjadi hamba-Nya yg sebenar-benarnya..


diri ini sentiasa mengecewakanNya,
bertapa diri ini terasa sgt kerdil dan malu..


ehmmmm...
*imbas kembali...


fiza dulu belajar kt IPTA kt kwasan agk pedalaman la bg fiza..
b0ring jgk la,
then,skng fiza pindah ke IPTS di tgh2 kota Raya...mgkin ade yg ckp 
"gilerr kaw, dah elok2 dpt IPTA wat pe pindah"...
ini, hal antara family...
ade hikmah setiap yg terjadi, ssgguhnya Dia Maha Mengetahui yg terbaik utk 
hamba-hamba Nya..

ble di igt blik zamn skolah menengah dlu,
mak suh masuk skolah Taayah..
fiza ckp "skolah ape tue mak? taknaklah..."
mak ckp "Taayah nie skolah mak dlu,asrama, skolah agama..."
fiza un sbenar-benarnya TAKNAK pi..sbb ASRAMA..
tp, hati kata TAKNAK, tgn isi borang...
em, fiza ikut jer..ape2 pilihan mak slalu nyer fiza ikut jer..


last2 dpt msuk, wlu un mse exam utk rebut tempat ke Taayah fiza wat cincai2..!
rezeki...
mak ngn abah nk anak2 ade didikan agama yg kuat..
doa parent, fiza dpt msuk Taayah..
dan sebenar-benarnya BERAT nk tinggalkn umah..
first day msuk asrama, nges larr...then, wat prngai..
ade suatu mase, fiza pnh
byk kali mintak kt mak nk pindah.. (xde spe un taw tyme tue)
mak ckp, blajar jer smpai abis..

em, sbenarnya byk mende 'jahat' kt skolah fiza wat scara senyap2...lg2 gajet2..fiza mahir bwk senyap2 nie..
byk ag kes2 nakal fiza..
rmai ckg xtaw, ade sorng jer ckg dpt taw..spe ckg itu, biarlah rahsia
dan fiza sgt hormat dan syg sume ckg..
muka jer baik, smpai an ckgu igt fiza nie PERSADA.. heheh
byk sgt tmpt rahsia, pot2 jahat fiza..

spnjg 5 tahun, sgala usrah, tazkirah, progm2 PERSADA fiza amik ringan jerr
*wlu un jd naqibah, fiza pnh tnye kt ustzh Rozaidah, nape pilih fiza jd naqibah..? fiza xlayak, tp ustzh ckp ustzh percaya kt kamu...fiza terharu, sgt rindukan ustzh.


Environment spnjg skolah menegah sehiggalah ke IPTA mmg islamik..
tp seribu kali syg, fiza x 'serap' sgt...
bg fiza hnye asas jer yg ade pd fiza..fiza xkuat bab2 agama..


dan fiza msuk IPTS, btul2 di bndaraya..
culture sh0ck? bley laa...
pub, mmg dkt sgt ngn h0stel fiza nie..
maj0r kwn fiza kt cnie x same malah xde lngsung mcm kwn kt skolah menegh ngn IPTA
jauh beza nyer..
mcm2 kerenah fiza dpt tgk,
ye, inilah dunia luar yg slalu ckg2 fiza ckpkn..
x sume org sempurna..
diri ini pun perlukan tarbiyyah sebenarnya..
kdng2 fiza kuat, kdg2 fiza lemah..
setelah bberape bulan kt IPTS nie, fiza mula syg kt kwn2 nie..
mgkin dyorg xnmpk, xcukup pnghyatan, 
fiza slalu doakn agar mereka ini nmpk pada sirratulMustaqim bgitu jge dgn diri ini..
fiza sndiri un sdng pertingkatkn ilmu..
nk tegur tp xcukup kuat lagi..

kt cnie, byk presentation..practical..best..
klu dlu kne hafal jerrr...


ade jgk fiza nk tolong org nie,stu class... 
sbb fiza tgk dy cm sorng2 jer..
ag pong rmai xske dy, ade member ckp depe xske dy sbb 1st class dy speaking...dlm hati fiza"ai, xkn sbb tue jer kne pinggir?"
tp, jgn salah fhm, 
dn jgn sesekali jatuh hati...*amaranku
ehmm, ade gk kwn2 sakat2...xpe fiza sabar2...
alhamdulillah dy dh ok ngn dyorg yg laen..
len kali jgn pencilkn diri, tegur2lah depa..
fiza un cbe jauh2 an cket dri dy, klu hal pljrn jer fiza akn ckp..
bkn dgn dy jer, ngn sume laki ...

kdg2 fiza rse lemah nyer diri nie..

kdg2 fiza ade berkata sendiri "ape la yg ko blajar kt skolah..."

sdey jgk..

em,,

diri ini hanya insan biasa yg msih tercari-cari lagi..

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan ku ... 

sungguh aku terasa seperti jauh dgnMu

dekatknlah aku padaMu..

sugguh aku mencintaiMu..

Mengapa kau pergi...kembali padaku.... T.T

bismilahhirahmanirrahim ~ In The Name Of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful 

tatkala peluang itu dtg...
fiza terpinga-pinga, 
tp kepercayaan shbat yg menguatkan fiza utk trus rebut peluang itu..
fiza membuat langkah, 
semangat yg xpernah luntur wlu rmai org yg pndng sinis, serong...
hnya shbt baik yg sntiase memberi smgat dan sokongan wlu dy tidak bersama-sama ku dlm perjuangan ini..


wlu byk aral melintang ku trus melawan arus...


TAPI itu dulu....

ia dtg dan pergi setelah mendapat tentangan hebat, dan sesuatu peristiwa yg mgkin parent akn kecewa..
itu tlh melemahkan smgt ku...
fiza x salah kn spe2 disbbkn peristiwa itu..
itu hanyalah kesilapan diri..

"Tidak ada sesuatu musibah yg menimpa (seseorang), kecuali dengan izin - Nya; 
dan barang sesiapa yg beriman kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan memberi petunjuk
kepada hatinya. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu." at- Taghabun : 11

dan ini antara ayat Al-Quran yg dpt memujuk hatiku ini...


fiza bkk buku baru, 
tatkala ku bukak buku baru masih ada sedara yg mengejekku, menyindirku..
sakit hatiku hanya Tuhan yg tahu..
smpaikn jantung nie tiba2 terasa pedih dan sakit tiba2,
kemarahanku x dilepaskn, hnyaku simpan dlm hati..


fiza mula kembali utk dptkn semangat yg dulu..
terasa jauh sgt ia menghilang..
bertapa kurindu saat dulu..
tatkala teringat kembali..
air mata mula mengalir...

fiza x bley mengalah..
fiza syg sume ...
xkn ku lupa pd matlamatku..!

"KEJAYAAN .....menuntut

                .......PENGORBANAN.....

Pengorbanan.....menuntut

                ......PERJUANGAN......

Perjuangan .....menuntut

                .....KETABAHAN......

Ketabahan ......memerlukan

                .....KEYAKINAN.....

Keyakinan .......menuntut

                .....KEJAYAAN.....!!!

sama-samalah bersangka baik kepada Yang Maha Berkuasa
atas segala-gala nya.
kita perlu terus berusaha dan selepas itu, 
baru berharap kepada-Nya...


Usaha.   Janji itu pasti.
Pasti...


Mengadu kepada Yang Maha Berkuasa atas segalanya.
Tiada pengaduan yg terbaik selain pengaduan kepada-Nya.


" (iaitu) org-org yg beriman dan tenang tenteram hati dgn mengingati Allah. Ketahuilah dgn mengingati Allah itu, tenang tenteramlah hati manusia." (Ar-Ra'd 13:28)


" oleh itu ingatlah kamu kepada-Ku, supaya Aku membalas kamu dgn kebaikan; dan bersyukurlah kamu kepada-Ku dan jgnlah kamu kufur (akn nikmat-Ku)." 
(Al-Baqarah 2:152)


Berusaha dan Yakin.
Mengalah hanya bila kalah.
Mati hanya bila ajal.

"Takdir itu, di hujung usaha hamba."

kita berusaha utk mendapatkan takdir yg baik, mndptkan pngakhiran yg baik.

jgn sesekali berkata "ini sudah takdir-Nya"

itulah kata2 apabila gagal dlm sesuatu, atau gagal melakukan sesuatu.

saya tak layak jadi JPAM...!

bismilahhirahmanirrahim ~ In The Name Of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful  


Alhamdulillah, 
fiza msih bernafas utk terus berusaha menjadi hamba-Nya..
aku hanyalah hamba-Nya yg lemah, yg byk lakukan kesilapan.. 
amar ma'ruf nahi mungkar..
insyaAllah..


cerita fiza...
SAyA TaK LAyaK jAdI JPAM...!!
tolonglah....xnk jd JPAM...waaaaaaaaaaa T.T

JPAM, kos yg wajib di amik utk sem nie,..
mula2 dah rncng dah nk amik sports or laen, tiba2 COMPULSARY...!
waaaaaaa, rse sdey...
kte hnya mampu merancang tapi Dia yg menentukan..
setiap yg terjadi ade hikmah nyer utk hamba2-NYA..


tanggal 10/3 - 12/3...
 diwajibkan utk pegi kem latihan JPAM di Batang Kali..
klu xnk pegi xpe, tapi fail la utk sem, ssh nk grad...
maka, terpaksalah teman nie pi ngn hati yg berat...


hari pertama..
macam biase, daftar...
malas nk citer pnjg2,
yg sure nyer mmg TAK BEST langsung....sbb niat TAK IHKLAS nk dtg..
ape yg fiza nmpak utk 1st day nie,,
ialah...mementingkan diri 
tp ade jer yg baek
maj0riti selfish!!
drp tingkah laku dyorng...fiza dpt tgk, malas nk layan dyorg..
yg penting fiza nk tggu hari terakhir, nk balik cpt2...


solat...? jgn ckp laaa, sume wat hal sndiri, fiza terkial2 nk cri sur0..
mule2 kne cri group sndiri 4org, spe la yg sudi nk group ngn fiza..
alhamdulillah ade 2org akak yg x cukup ahli..msuk la droup dyorg..
lps abis jer diri kn khemah, fiza pi usaha tnye akak2 kt c2 mne suro..
sblm tue ade kwn fiza tnye.. "mcm mne nie x solat ag,..sur0 xde"
dlm hati fiza, "mmg le, sng jer an..usaha la cri..xkn nk biarkn jer x solat..kem un kem jgk, solat jgn tinggal"
N0 action, n0 result...


mlm tue, 
kteorg ade ICEbreaking..
nie, FIRST tyme icebreaking langsung TAK BEST..! mmg le niat TAK IKHLAS sume jd x best kan...
lps tue ade pngenalan psl jpam ...
tyme tue fiza tidoooo000zzzzzz jer..


pagi pukul 2AM,
ktorng kne kawad...waaaa...sgguh la penat..
nie la kawad pling TAK BEST..
fiza dah mula nmpk prngai dyorng,
xde ukhwah langsung..
dulu tyme skolah fiza ade kawad jgk,
kwd kt skolah lagi best...
memory pling indah kt skolah..


hari ke-2...
sepanjang ptg, class ngn practical...
spnjg clas tue fiza byk tdo, tyme practical jer fiza xtido..
mlm ade clas lagi, lagi best la fiza tid0...
tersengguk2, ade kot laki tgk fiza tersengguk2 lantaklah, peduli ape...
sarjan tue un prasan kot fiza tdo, dy tepuk meja kuat2, p2 fiza ade dg0r dyorg gelak2..
ahhh..peduli ape,
mlm tue jgk kteorg dpt baju JPAM, bju tue kne pakai tyme kawad sok..
settle amik bju, kteorg xley msuk td0 lagi kne tggu sume settle amik bju..
settle sume dlm koi 2.30AM lbih,
mmg rse nk jerit jer...tp apalah daya nk lawan, nie kem..


pukul 3AM or 4AM lbih x igt la koi bpe,
siren bunyi kteorg sume kne bgun..
warghhhhh,, x sempat nk lena tdo...
xpe lah, ku pasrah..
mlm tue kteorg kne tocer...
mmg takut la wei...
kne wat kawad skali..
adoii...
rupe2 nyer tue acara wajib sblm kteorg blik,
xpe lah, sab0r jer lah..


hari terakhir...
inilah saat2 yg ku tggu..
alhamdulillah..
pg tue kteorg ade acara penutup,
ade org kenamaan dtg..
dyorg baek, manis, lngsung x megah...


akhir nyer, acara tamat...
alhamdulillah..


Seriously, fiza tak layak jd JPAM..
fiza suke tlg org, bg0s JPAM nie, jgn salah anggap..
keje JPAM mulia, 
mugkin fiza bkn antara org yg terpilih..
mgkin cre fiza tlg org dgn cre laen..
cita2 ku utk jd jutawan..


ape yg fiza dpt 
-tgk tyme kawad mcm2 ayat keluar, mne x nyer benak nyer hati..
rasuah byk.. n0 komen..
-xde ukhwah, waallahhualam..


Yang Baik itu Datang dari Allah
dan yg buruk itu dtg atas kelemahan diri saya sendiri..


KEBAIKAN yg fiza dpt kt sne...
xsume nyer TAK BEST..
rugi lah pegi balik tgn kosong..
fiza kutip ilmu mne yg elok jer...


sepanjg kem, mcm yg fiza xtaw, fiza baru taw..
antara nyer ilmu
pertolongn cemas, medical, cpr, kebakaran, ikat tali dan mcm2 lagi..
mse kawad pagi2 buta tue pulak..
satu fen0mena yg jarang skali fiza akn dpt tgk...
fenomena bintang yg bertaburan byk, dan sgt2 jelas..
bulan yg sgt cantik, bulan jarak dekat..
SUBHANALLAH....
kt kem tue pedalaman..
sepanjg perjalanan, byk hijau-hijauan...
SUBHANALLAH....indah nyer ciptaan-NYA
hanya manusia yg merosakkan nyer..

antara gmbar2 yg fiza amik dri tempat laen, xpe mende sme jer...

yg best kt tmpat nie ade kuda, comey2 

subhanallah....fiza suke tgk ciptaan-Nya

indah, cantik...